Are you with me or not?

Our fundraising efforts have been a huge hit not just with my family and friends but with my community! Im not sure if many of you watch KTLA channel 5, but they aired the Astro Burger fundraiser that was held on Monday, August 24, 2009 yesterday at 6:30pm!! Im not sure on the final amount raised as of yet and as soon as I recieve that figure I will be sure to let you know :)

The car wash on Sunday August 23, 2009 was another success raising $363 and change! The owners of Mr. Petes have expressed there support offering us another day to hold a fundraiser! And this time, every car wash purchased also is given a coupon for a free burger!! I can't wait to start planning that car wash and many more fundraisers! Bella Mia's condition and her daily fight with SMA has been an inspiration to many and together with the help of my family, friends, and communty, we will change the course of SMA history even if its in the smallest of ways.

Nothing in my life has ever made me more humbled or proud as my fight agaist SMA and the overwhelming support it has recieved. I had initially asked for monetary support to save our home and cars and unfortunetly we already lost our home but on the bright side saved our cars. And now that my needs for Bella's comfort are being met by my dad (thank GOD for him) Im ready to give as much of my raised money, time, and heart as I can. Its time for me to answer the phone that has been ringing. My purpose is calling. Is my purpose saving my daughters life? Fighting for her life? Raising awareness for her condition? Going to medical school? As a matter of fact its all of it.

My dad was talking to me last night about the Power of Intent. He expressed how my perserverance has astonished him and to see me get up every morning and continue searching, and talking, and fighting for SMA and Bella has shown him exactly who I am and he has never been so proud. Do you know what that means to me?? My dad NEVER talks like that. He told me to make this my ultimate goal. To visualize my expected outcome and expect nothing less. He belives that so long as I keep pushing, keep believing, keep praying, and keep searching any outcome that I want WILL be achieved. NO ONE to this day has told me that. No one has shown more heart or faith in me than my dad. No one except my daughter. I intend on saving Bella Mia's life. I intend on going the distance and walking the road wherever it may lead me. I intend on waking up every morning revitalized and hopeful regardless of the crap and hurdles I face. And I intend on making this happen alone if I must. Because Bella Mia is my daughter, my saving grace, my purpose and she deserves this.

To all you skeptics who look at this as a joke, as a sure failure, I say take your pessimistic ora as far away from my life as possible. I DONT NEED YOU bringing black holes into my fight for my daughter. I don't need your judgement, comments, or advice. I was raised to get up off the ground when I fall and to keep going. To never let any single person or group tell me what I can and cannot do. I have had many MANY MANY opportunities to dig my own grave and rot but I have crawln out of the pits of hell many times. When every odd was agaist me, I came out alive and successful. If there was something I could do, I did it. And this is just another mountain I am going to move.

If you are going to fight along our side its going to require working side by side with me, faith in God, and an optomist soul. Its time to make a difference. We are going to save Bella and nothing else should matter or get in the way of that.

Many of you have the ability to do more than others and thats great. But if you can't hold fundraisers, car washes, or yard sales in Bellas name a prayer every night holds the same value. I expect nothing from anyone except their commitment to fight along side with Bella.

God Bless every fighters fight. God Bless every prayers' prayer.
Bren